Updated: Jul 24, 2019
As I finally accepted my identity in Christ, God led me to share what my thoughts were with others!
I always knew I wanted to be a Believer but I never wanted to let go of the completeness I felt in my sins. I never wanted to do the “work” or let go of the things that made me feel good inside. At one point it felt good to walk in the flesh and not the spirit. It was so much easier to do things the way I wanted. It felt so good to be full of myself and have a me me me spirit.
I was raised in a church. I had already been going every Sunday and Bible study here and there so it was easier to get in the Word and stay in the Word, but it was hard to be an actual doer of the Word each day. I was desperate to be a good Christian though. I was desperate to be in God’s presence! So I was intentional in getting this Christian experience started. My first step was to pray. I prayed that God would fill me up and give me the strength to stand on His Word. I opened my Bible and I haven’t stopped reading it or spending time with God ever since.
Now, I can’t even imagine being so full of myself and not God. It feels so good to be in His everlasting and loving presence! I pray every day that God increase and that I decrease. I can’t even imagine being lukewarm and choosing specific days I want to believe and live in Christ. While transitioning, at times I thought that I missed the old days when I used to do this or feel a specific way and then I had to think otherwise and tell myself that it feels so good to have ALL of God’s love and not just some of it. It feels so good to walk in my purpose. It feels so good to reap what I sow. It feels good to receive the promises God has for me and even have the faith for the promises that are to come. It feels so good not to have to look over my shoulder wondering if I was going to be punished because of this or that. It feels even better when I witness to others about how amazing our Father is! When you walk in the Spirit, you literally feel God’s love, grace, and favor upon you. It becomes natural. It leaves me speechless every time just thinking about how unconditional His love is. It’s a process… I fall short sometimes. I’m not perfect but I will work toward perfection each day
“Live a life filled with love, following the example of Christ. He loved us and offered himself as a sacrifice for us, a pleasing aroma to God.”
Ephesians 5:2 NLT